Wednesday, February 23, 2011

You can find "peace" in expectancy.


Ever feel like this?
Expectantly waiting for something spectacular to happen?

Well, I do. All the time.
I've been sitting on my couch, looking out my window for the past few weeks now.
Wishing something amazing would happen.

And I haven't exactly been pleasant to be around.
You should feel sorry for the people who have to have daily interaction with me.
Sorry roommates. Sorry Grahm.

The point is, I need to be okay with God's timing, his plan. This is such a hard, hard
thing. Too often I find myself questioning it all. Where should I live in two months?
What should I do after school? Where should I work?

The million question marks dancing around in my head are frustrating to say the least.

Someone once told me that worry is simply a lack of trust. Ouch. How true.

In the end, I think the Lord wants us to be like those little kids in the picture. We
should be expectant, knowing that He will do wondrous things and use us in
unimaginable ways. But that doesn't mean we should be bump on a logs waiting around
for that to happen.

By wishing for graduation, job offers, marriage... I'm missing the blessings of the
present. My today is slipping away as I wish for tomorrow. I don't want to get in this
habit. I don't want this to be the anxious theme of my life, always wishing for the next
big thing.

Lord, forgive me. Content is not my middle name.

Psalm 37:4-7a
"Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him."


  1. I struggle with this ALL the time! It's like I'm always waiting for something better to happen. Thanks for sharing that Psalm, it's so perfect!

  2. Sweeeeeett, Jena. You are reading my mind, but putting on paper, er, blog, much better than me. Good work, my friend. And the funny thing is, I've read these verses quite a few, ok probably about one hundred times these past few weeks. Remember that when it says, He will give us the desires of our heart, He must be the desire of our heart. And then everything else will fall right into place. AMEN. And "be still"? How many times have I sent this to friends who are grieving, wrote this down for me to remember, and said aloud. This is my hearts cry: "Be still; know that HE is God." So glad I read this while typing my latest post, because I will now include a little link love to this! =) praying for you dear one!